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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

I Believe Him

Hey Yall -

I was over at http://www.chattingatthesky.com/ earlier this morning and Emily was talking about receiving love from her husband and what a gift it is and it got me to thinking. A few posts back I kinda whined about not getting Tiffany's for our 20th anniversary. (yes ~ I am that spoiled...by my husband who loves me.) A few days after that my wonderful husband explained why he got me the gift that he did.

It's a necklace called "Journey." There are 3 diamonds representing the past, the present, and the future. He told me he picked it out because of the amazing, stressful, wonderful, frustrating, blessed journey we have been on together for the last 24 years and because he is so looking forward to our journey together in the future. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

My husband loves me! Unconditionally! I feel so unworthy of his adoration. I am afraid of this love because he has trusted me with the most precious gift he could ever give me ~ his heart. I hold it in my hands and he continually believes that I will not drop it or harm it or break it. I have failed him so many times and every time he forgives me. He accepts me with all my flaws and loves me in spite of them.

I didn't used to believe him when he told me he loved me...in my skewed view of love, I was so undeserving. If I didn't get the love I needed growing up, why on earth would I get it as a "grown-up?" I know that God sent him to me in order to give me a glimpse of His unconditional love. I know that God sent him to me so that I would know love and learn to receive it and learn to give it. And I am learning love...I'm learning to open up and let my husband see inside me, to see my scars and my hurts and my disappointments. And it doesn't scare him off! He is loving me in spite of and because of who I am.

I am so blessed ~ thank you Lord for the gift of my man.

thanks for listenin'


  1. I love this blog. Such a beautiful view of your heart. Now when he gets home pray together. God gave you the heart and courage to write this so the time is right. I love you my friend.

  2. I have a profound thankfulness for my man too...God knows just what He is doing when He brings two people together


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