So tonight I'm doin' what I usually do when the hubs is on travel - put together new furniture (duh! What else would I be doin"?!) UPS drops off a box that doesn't look big enough to hold a pair of shoes much less a nightstand. So I spend a couple of cussin', swearin', yellin' at the dogs, droppin' tools on my foot delightful hours puttin' the damn thing together (and btw...I did yell at the dog cause the fucker ate my favorite bra while I was otherwise occupied!)
While dumpin' the drawers of the old nightstand into the drawer of the new one, I found a letter I wrote to the hubs in 1998 when he was on the first of many overseas trips. After readin' it, I came to the surprising obvious conclusion that I still feel the same way (though he annoyed the shit outta me yesterday before he left). Thought I'd share it with y'all, and perhaps the hubs will read it too. Guess it's kinda an apology for bein' such a bitch last night...and yeah - I do know some big words.
"A forced separation gives a person all sorts of time for introspection. And, in contemplating my life, I have come to the not-so-surprising conclusion that you give my life meaning and worth.
I know that I don't always act or show the way I feel, but I am determined to start doing everything I can to let you know how important you are to me. You are the first person I think of every morning and the last thought I have before going to sleep.
When you smile at me, my world feels a little safer, warmer, and brighter. When you touch me I feel a sense of contentment that belies words. My thoughts of you are what keep me going when, at times, all else seems to be falling down around me.
Every day I wait with anticipation for you to come through the door. I love it when you share your day with me and it makes me feel so good that you want, and value, my opinions.
Watching you with our son has got to be one of the most beautiful things on this side of heaven. I know that God had a special hand in the relationship that the two of you have and I am so proud to have you as our son's daddy.
I really just wanted to let you know that you are the essential element in my life; the air that I breathe, the water that I drink, the sun around which I revolve.
All my love, forever"
All my love forever Honey
p.s. the new nightstand...beautiful isn't it??!!